Reality struck me like a thunder booming in the earth's surface... it is killing me, unhurriedly yet harshly.
From there, I know I SHOULD do something or perhaps I want to feel this predictably discontentment that I encountered when that realization hit me. It was not fun, was it? It slowly taking your confidence out of you.
This fact is continuously hitting my pride and I could not take it... gradually moving this remaining confidence of mine away. I've never felt such feeling, not until, this year... It was exactly the opposite of what I used to be or rather have.
It is the right time to wake from being idle and asleep. It's the right time to make a move and make a change... I need to, or, I would want to constantly feel this undesirable emotion which I strongly object.
Labels: freak, hate, hurt